Posts published during February, 2009

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Hard Learned Lessons

I’ve learned a few lessons in drawing the hard way. Today I want to share the biggest bitch that comes with learning how to draw in an anime or manga style.

Moral of the story, learn volumes first! Hell, do still life drawing and life drawing, focus on the lighting and rendering. If you can render it right, you can draw it right, but if you can only draw it right, you’ll have to unlearn how you see things in order to render it right.

Final Thought:
Everyone can draw a circle, square and triangle, especially since it really doesn’t have to be perfect. Therefore, you already know everything about shape needed to start doing still life. The real challenge of still life is to look at something, say an orange for instance, and instead of mentally filling in a shape, circle in this case, to instead see how the contrast between light and shadow is creating that shape. It can be boring, but hang in there and you’ll appreciate it later!

Nine-ish years ago now, there was a movie named The Cell. It stared Jennifer Lopez and Vince Vaughn, and to be perfectly frank, I don’t hold either in esteem for their acting abilities… But the concept… a hell of a concept, there, dream diving. I only saw parts at a time, but the cinematography and visual style were almost spot on… almost.

Six years later an anime named Paprika was released. The concept was revisited. Again it was a thriller, though this time not a crime thriller, at least not in the sense The Cell was. The acting of the drawn characters, and the voice acting behind them is clearly professional. The stylistic tone changed from obnoxiously loud to thoughtful and colorful.

At one point the conceit is carried slightly too far, but it is used to convey the final connotations of the theme. Also to finalize the exploration of the characters and their subtler motivations.

I’m not sure what I think of The Cell, to be honest. It was good, in it’s way, but not a great work of cinema. I’m not sure how I feel in it’s entirety about Paprika… because I am simply in awe of being allowed to witness such powerful and sublime cinema. Or to put it simpler, it would be like comparing the difference between a Micheal Bay film, and Schindler’s List. For whatever faults I can eventually nit pick out of examining Paprika, I find so much more, that I hadn’t even been aware of as I watched, that leaves me in awe of their writing and directing.

I only regret not watching it sooner.

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Kedy

Kedy was a teddy bear, a plain brown teddy bear. Her stitching was a little gilded, and her edges were looking worn. She loved a little girl named Karoline, who hugged her every night and told her what a good teddy bear she was. For five long years she kept by Karoline’s side, through laughter, tears, and many hugs.

One day Karoline asked Kedy a question. It was an odd question to be sure, who else would have thought to ask but a young girl who loved her teddy bear. “What do you want to be when you grow up?” Kedy thought long and hard, hard and long, before it finally occurred, “I want to be a little girl, and laugh and sing and play with Karoline!”

“But teddy bears can’t grow up to be little girls,” Karoline told her. “But I want to do it anyway!” Kedy replied. “You can’t do it, Kedy!” Karoline scolded. “I just want to be a little girl and laugh and sing and play with you! Don’t you want that too!?”

And Karoline was quiet for a while, then stood and left the room. Kedy could only wait, wondering if she had hurt the best little girl she’d ever known. Karoline came back, with something hidden behind her back, “now Kedy, tell me really, no games, and nothing impossible, what do you want to be when you grow up!?”

“A little girl, is all. It’s all I’ll ever want!” But Kedy’s answer made Karoline angry, and she pulled out what she’d been hiding. With one swift stroke her first stab landed, the knife cutting brown and gold. “I’m sorry” cried the little bear, as her only love attacked. “Sorry!?” Karoline called with manic glee as she ripped the bear to shreds. “How dare you say such awful things to me, stupid bear, stupid useless bear!”

The police arrived the following day, but called others on there way. It wasn’t there’s to take her, despite the gruesome scene. The men in white would come for one who holds her little girl and screams, “What a bad little teddy bear you’ve been! You should have listened to me!”

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Abbydisia

It was dark outside of the starkly decorated room. A low table in the middle surrounded by velour cushions was the only furniture in the room, and the way the paint on the walls danced as though the water on the walls was real was it’s only distinguishable aspect. Out of the open rear door, the descendants of cicadas chirped into the lonely mountain night.

Inside a woman with silver hair and eyes, wearing a worn training gi, poured tea into four handleless cups. The red headed woman nodded and said something polite as her cup was filled, the black haired man following her example, while the blonde haired man skipped the pleasantries all together to launch into conversation.

“Well, it looks like all our special training has finally paid off,” he says.

“Oh yes, well some of us had more special training than others,” the red head replies, glancing over at the silver haired woman.

“Be nice Mara,” the black haired man warns.

“What, it’s only true,” Mara replies.

“I am only property, I do as my mistress commands in all things,” the silver haired woman interjects.

“So you don’t deny it then, Shiala,” the blonde interjects.

“Oh come off it you two,” the black haired man says.

“Interesting choice of words, Jenji” Mara says, prompting a laugh out of the blonde, and a coy smile from Shiala.

“Come on, you can’t say you’ve never been the least bit curious,” Mara smiles at Jenji.

“Well nothing like you and Tion seem to be… but, do you really do it just because the master tells you to?”

Shiala smiles and shrugs slightly, “perhaps.”

“Typical, an answer as clear as mud,” Tion laughs.

“You three don’t seem to be worried about tomorrow at all,” Jenji says. “I just can’t stop worrying about it.”

The mood sours slightly, and Shiala picks up in the absence. “We’re all nervous Jenji, some of us possibly even more than you, we just each have our own way of dealing it.”

“I’m worried I won’t be able to notice the soul of the sword speaking to me,” Mara says while spots of rose blossom on her cheeks.

“Hell, I’m worried what happens after we meet our swords. Do we get to stay here till we feel ready to go, or will we be sent off to serve some lord or other. Or worse, are we just going to find ourselves out on our assess to fend for ourselves,” Tion says, placing his hands behind his head and leaning back slightly.

“Even if that happens, I don’t think you three have anything to worry about. I mean, Mara, you attack like the wind, and you’re only getting better. Shiala, you’ve got the greatest balance of all the students, some of them say it’s even better than master’s. Tion, well, I don’t think anyone outside of this room, except master of course, has even managed to touch you lately. I don’t think I have anything like that, so what would I do?” Jenji says.

“Haha, you’re in this room for a reason Jenji. You may just need some time to find your own strengths.” Mara smiles to him.

“In fact, Jenji, you may be the most talented of us all. You’ve managed to keep up with all of us despite our specializations, that takes no small skill.” Shiala adds.

“Anyways, tomorrows the big day, so let’s drink up! To the Master and the pursuit of honor!” Tion interrupts.

“To the Master and the pursuit of honer!” the rest repeat.

So before the EVE bomb hit, everyone was discussing the announcement of the 300k subs in WAR. I would have said more earlier, but I didn’t quite feel like making a one line post consisting of “I fucking told you so!”

Actually, my views have shifted a little, I’m not so down on PvE these days. And arguably, the relative inadequacies of their PvE may have cost them the most. I still stand firmly by the simple truth that you won’t get WoW’s numbers with a new MMO. And a large part of that is something that I had already put in words sometime around the end of GDC ’08. “Any new game will be, on release, a categorically worse game than every other game on the market.” Of course, I didn’t account for releases within a short period, but basically a new game simply cannot hope to stack up to a mature game in terms of quality and quantity of content, it’s impossible.

(By the by, the friend I told that too said that he had been told almost exactly the same thing by Scott Hartsmann while at GDC that year, thus how I know the time frame. Which reminds me, I consider oHai the next big project to watch. The last one, with audio verification to prove I’m not changing my mind in hindsight, that I considered that way was Metaplace, and lately they’ve completely blown me away. And that also reminds me, there is a beta and I have 10 invite keys if you want in too.)

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Worth Watching

Raph has a link to one of his newest Keynotes on his blog.

This one is particularly good.

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Holy F***ing S***

BoB gets bitten by Goonswarm corp theft.

Man, if I had the money… I would so resub right now.

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Glue

Up until about 4pm(1600) today, I’d been having the day from hell. After 4 it was more normal, and since I’m hopefully going to go see Paul Blart: Mall Cop in a little over an hour, the day will end on a high note. But what made the first part of my day so hellish? Sentences and speech.

It’s often said that particles are the glue that holds sentences together. Particles are words like the, is and it, at least I’m pretty sure they are. Anyways, as of three AM this morning I found myself given an object lesson in just how much bullshit that saying really is. As it turns out, there is actually some segment of the brain that you need to pass the words through in order to glue them together and form a sentence.

I know this with absolute certainty, because when I woke up at 3 am this morning, that part of my brain was almost entirely out of commission. The greater part of my mind was still working, in fact I was examining my condition with great fascination, and thoughts and ideas continued to form. However, it felt as though there were some amount of white noise foremost in my mind. I conjured up a few words to say to test my faculty for speech, “i” “can” “speak”, had the words ready, and then underwent a herculean process of breaking through that white noise enough to form a sentence with a words. I then had to battle my mouth to make it form the tongue and lips into some formation that would create a sound other than “aaaugh” before finally being able to speak my short sentence. I’m pretty sure my voice sounded like crap just then, and in review, I may have been slurring a bit, but at the time it was one hell of a relief to get out that first sentence. A relief tempered by the fact that once out, the sentence was gone and would have to be reformed from scratch.

I went through two more test sentences in those next few minutes. Truth be told, I was rather fascinated by the processes I was feeling work in my mind. The way the words would slide around the edge of the white noise, as though trying to form a new path to each other to make those important bonds that underlie a sentence. During all of this, I felt rather like shit across my whole body, any cold air that reached my legs felt like ice, the covers didn’t seem to impart any warmth, and what felt like a fever even though my forehead wasn’t warm to the touch.

I didn’t feel scared until what felt like probably five minutes in. The point at which it occurred to me that this may not be temporary. When I began to very vividly imagine a future in which I returned my full faculties of thought, but could never speak to, or be understood by anybody again. At this point I began to attack the noise head on, pushing as much thought as possible into and through the region. Within a few seconds, the noise began to diminish, and in around or perhaps a little under a minute, the noise went away and I was able to function normally.

I don’t remember much of the next few hours. I finished watching the series Samurai Champloo, and tried to focus on some bits of writing and fluff for Ronin Beat. I had agreed to give someone a ride at around 9, so I wound up awake until about 9:30 when I saw them and was apparently still looking bad enough that they offered to put it off until tomorrow without my saying a word. I slept till 3, waking up more tired than when I had gone to sleep. My day finally started at around 4, and like I said, it’s been pretty all around normal since, other than being very tired… well actually that is normal.

So how was your day?

Testing Ready Build 2

Combat
- The damage model has been changed. Now you have a damage limit, when exceeded in a single hit you go down. When dealt over 75% of your limit in a single blow it counts as a gash. Under that is a glance.
- The d20 roll has been modified slightly. 1-15 are still dodges, and 16-18 are still normal hits. 19 is a 2x damage hit, and 20 or natural 0 as it’s reported deals 2.5x damage on it’s hit.

Character
- Levels! You now have a level, and it has an effect on you. Unfortunately you do not gain experience at this time, instead you can test duels between equal level characters at levels 1, 5, and 10.
- A PC gains 20% increased damage and damage limit per level. A NPC gains 10% damage and 25% damage limit per level.

UI
- The damage reporting segment has been updated to reflect the combat changes.
- Placeholder portraits have been added for the combatants.
- The program now has icon art.

Where to get it:
Please leave a comment in the thread if you are participating in play testing.

Also if testers could send an e-amil to RBeat.Update@gmail.com with the word “Tester” in the subject line. It’ll be very helpful in allowing me to send out surveys and what not. I’ll also try and keep more regular updates going out through it, and see if I can’t fit some goodies of sorts into it somehow.